Well, life sometimes seems as though it could not get any more boring, and then there are times where I feel whole again and that things are going well. Today I have felt a little of both. I am currently living vicariously through my cousin who is going out with her "friend" as I like to call him. It is all rather romantic and completely enthralling. I can hear all of my family and friends saying, "It will happen for you one day." While this may be a comfort for many I feel as though it is a way for people to say, you know you're not complete without a guy. Since when does being me include being with someone else. I don't know, maybe this is my independence speaking out here, but I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I want people to look at me and say "There's a girl with her head on her shoulders."
I can honestly say that I love being me. This has not always been the case. When I was younger I hated me, and no one could ever understand why. Now no one understands me at all. I truly was never born to fit in or to be understood. That is why I like being me so very much. I like being different and unique. I don't want to be the girl who everyone sees because she's beautiful, I want to be the girl they want to hang out with because she has something to say, and isn't afraid to get in there and get it done.
I now embark on the rest of my week with the goal of finding a job, and being happy with that part of my life. I want to be steady. I want to be an adult. I am ready to get out there and to be able to stand on my own two feet. Love me or hate me, I am who I am...and I'm ok with that.
