It has been a while since I have written in my blog. I have been gone on a spiritual journey, seeking God's guidance for my life. I have been running away from Him for way too long. For the last two weeks I have been running TOWARDS Him as fast as I can. My life has been up in the air for far too long and now I want God to have a hold of it. I want Him to lead me and guide my steps.
You all know that my biggest struggle is being alone, but this year I choose not to think of it as being alone, but as being free to minister in every area that God calls me. I have this really great friend, more like a brother really, who made me cry as he wrote to me, praying that I would be content in myself. I know that I generally am not content with me. I have hated myself for so many years. People are always confused by that statement, because most people love me. I am a very fun and nice person, but I often struggle to be happy with me. I am always seeing ways in which I fall short. I thank each of you for your encouragement. Be praying for me, that God would continue to bless me with this outlook. I don't want to dwell in my loneliness. I want to be content in my life.
Don't get me wrong, I am still looking for the man of my dreams, and if anyone has a man they would like to point in my direction...they can feel free...lol...just be praying that God would bring us together, that those two pieces of the puzzle would finally fit as one. You guys are amazing...all my love!
Jess
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