Being Real With Myself

Every day my life seems to be going more in the right direction. I have decided what I want to do with my life, and now the only question lies in how I will accomplish my goal. I have decions to make and while I know they won't be easy, I am confident that I will make the right ones. I have been struggling for a long time, and now all I want to do is feel at peace.

This weekend was interesting to say the least. I let my Inner Desires out to run loose. I had so much fun, and I don't regret anything. I think sometimes it is good to let yourself just be real. So many times we hide what we want, afraid that we will hurt someone or we will get hurt. I am tired of living in fear, and this weekend I let my fears disappear.

My heart hangs on a delicate balance at times, but I have decided to put a stronger hold on it. I want to think with my brain for a while, and not let my heart control me. I am tired of questioning myself, my desires, and my reasons. I want to make choices and not look back and wonder what if. This is my new outlook, and I don't care if I offend anyone, or do something others don't agree with. This is my life, and I am tired of living it the way others decide. I will move on, and I will move forward. That is my new desire, my new goal.

I want to be real with myself. I no longer want to live the way others think I should, I want to live for me. This is my life, and I will be real. I am tired of the fake people in my life, and I don't want to be the same as they are. I need to be who I need to be right now, and if anyone disagrees, screw 'em. I just need to be for me! I will not back, and I will not give up.