Letting Go

I have always had a hard time learning to let go of things and, being female, I tend to over analyze everything that happens. Over the last few weeks I have been struggling with a problem that seemed bigger than I could handle at the moment. I would lay in bed trying to come up with a solution, and it would drive me insane laying there thinking and thinking. I would let the thoughts sit in my head, toss them up, mix them around, and no matter where they landed I always ended up at the same place I began. This weekend I decided to do something about it.

I walked right up to my problem and said, "We need to talk." A few hours later I sat in my office, literally staring my problem in the face. We ended up talking for almost half an hour. I sat there and poured my heart out, and in the end I sat there and cried. But these tears were not of sadness, they came because I was mad, not just at the problem, but at myself as well. It bothered me that I would let something, or someone make me feel the way I did. In the end I felt much better, and this weekend has been quite stress free. I feel like a load has been lifted off of me, and I can now walk with confidence.

I think the next couple of days will test me, but I believe I will pass with flying colors. I am very excited about my next, and I believe it will be exactly what I need right now. I am looking forward to my days off, and some R&R. It's kinda strange, because I feel like I can breathe better, I sleep better, and now I feel like a million bucks. I hope everyone gets the chance to experience liberation like this. Stay free, and don't be afraid to let go.