A Simple Plan

Last night I was driving home. I had a million things running through my head and all I wanted was a solution to each one of my problems. I was turning the channels on the radio and landed on a station that was playing the song "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan and the lyrics were amazing.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna runaway?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

But no one hears you screaming

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desparate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

I heard this and thought, oh I have found my theme song. I think we all feel a little like this sometimes. I can't help but feel that way most of the time. Especialy the second verse. I think this song about sums it all up.

Last night I was mad at myself again. Have you ever had a choice, and while one would provide instant gratification, it would most likely fade away, while the other might take longer, but it might also last longer? I think that I know what I want right now, but I am not sure that it is what I need. I keep falling into this pit and I wonder if I will ever get out. I try, trust me, I try. I think that I have finally nailed it, given it a solution, and just when I think the problem has been fixed, I lose all control over the situation. I guess someday I will figure it out.

I suppose that we all have these problems in our lives. The ones where the answer should be so simple, and yet it is so difficult to find. I suppose that it will all work and so I go and leave you to ponder.